March has been a pretty rough month and to top it all off I caught a horrible stomach bug on Thursday that lasted about 48 hours. It was one of the worst illnesses I have had in quite sometime and don't wish this bug on anyone. However when I hopped on the scale on Saturday morning and saw I was 10 pounds lighter I thought it may have been a blessing in disguise. Of course I knew that I had mainly lost fluids (Not eating for two days helped too!) but psychologically it still made me feel good. (Insane, I know) Well, after I got hydrated today I still weighted about 8 pounds lighter. I think this is the perfect head start I needed. I feel recharged and have planned out a week of healthy foods and exercise. I don't welcome being sick, but hey, whatever it takes to get me back in the game.
I got to spend some time last weekend with my best friends in Atlanta. It was fun and lifted my spirits. It was especially wonderful to see my friend Faith who is 7 months pregnant. I got to feel the baby move and she looked so adorable.
Well, I was being private about this at first but I think I am ready to share now. I got some bad news at the Doctor last month and it threw me into a deep depression. I just felt like I wasn't getting any where with my weight loss, I wasn't getting anywhere with my fertility, and now I hear news that I have another issue to battle. It seems the lining of my uterus is doesn't look quite right and they are concerned I have cancer or pre-cancer. They believe that this stems from my hormonal imbalances. I have been unable to stop thinking about this. I have allowed it to consume me. I have my biopsy next week and am praying that I will get good news. Even if I don't have cancer now, if they can't get my hormones into balance I will always have an increased risk of all female cancers. One of the ways to get my hormones in balance is to loss weight because the extra fat means extra estrogen. Although the hormone imbalance also makes it harder to lose weight. I have unfortunately turned to food way too many times in the last month for comfort. I have gained 3 pounds in the last 4 weeks.