3/19/07

Monday Weigh In:326 & Dress Woes

I have been in a downward spiral for the past week and a half...sickness...a death in the family and then the dreaded bridesmaid dress came in. As you can guess, it didn't fit, it didn't even come close to fitting. This through me into a deep depression. I know I should have thought about how far I have come the last few months but instead I felt like a loser and bought pad thai, sushi, and cherry vanilla breyers ice cream to soothe myself. The top of the dress and waist were a little too big, but the hips and butt barely fit over and made me look like a pig in a blanket. It was pathetic. I guess I thought I might be able to fit because some of my clothes are 24's now. I have at least 3 size 24 dresses that fit me well but I guess that is because they are flowy and not so fitted. I took the dress into my trusty seamstress hoping she could help me with this mess of a situation and her reaction of "Wow, I don't think there is much I can do" didn't help the horrible feelings of dread ether. The biggest problem (besides my fat ass) is that the dress is a very specific shade of green and the fabric can not really be matched. I am not sure what to do. Should I step down as maid of honor? Should I offer to have a different dress made for me in her other color (silver)? I feel like a loser friend. A good friend would have gotten skinny enough. And, yes, I am an emotional eater. *sigh*

2 comments:

  1. Don't be hard on yourself - you'll get there! In the meantime, try calling the dress maker and asking how much they charge for extra fabric. I bet you can order some and your seamstress can use it to alter the dress. I did this and also used the fabric to make all the bridesmaids pretty hair things to match their dresses. Good luck!

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  2. Please please please please please please please please please read Dr. Phil's book. Please!

    I just blogged about this same kind of sabotage for my best friend's wedding where I was the maid of honor. I looked horrible in my maid of honor dress... horrible!

    Honestly I see SO MUCH of me in you I really wish with every ounce of my being you would read the book. You're not a loser you just don't have the tools to get a grip on a lifetime of bad habits.

    I'm actually re-reading the book for the 4th time and every single time I get more out of it. In every line you wrote here I can pinpoint exactly what you're doing and what pages you should read. I swear to God if you read it you will get SOMETHING out of it.

    I just want to hug you right now and tell you everything will be all right. This must be such a trying time for you and so very stressful. It could be your "rock bottom". The only way now... is up.

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