The First Step
So, I started getting serious about changing my life about 32 days ago. Like many other good intentioned people I jumped on the band wagon and started my new lifestyle ( I am not into "diets") on January 1st 2007. I have done this many years before. In fact I am pretty sure this has been my "resolution" every year since I was 14. I have struggled with my weight ever since I hit puberty. I first saw the dreaded 200's my sophomore year of high school and first saw the horrifying 300's was in 2004. I got married in July of 2004 and it only got worse from there. (Not my life just my weight...well sometimes I wonder if I can separate the two. They are so intertwined. But what I am saying is, getting married was wonderful and my husband is amazing but my weight got even more out of control after the wedding.) I ignored the scale my whole first year of marriage. When I finally decided to see how much I weighted in summer of 2006 I was shocked and appalled at the number I saw. I knew I had gained a little more weight but nothing could have prepared me to see that I now at 360 pounds was only 40 pounds away from 400! This launched me into a very deep depression which of course leads to more unhealthy eating! I made a lot of little attempts to lose weight last year but could never stick with anything more than six weeks. This time I feel more determined than ever before to achieve my goal. There are lots of reason's I want to lose weight that are pretty common, I want to be a better wife, I want to buy clothes I like, I want to fit into all chairs with arms, I want to feel lighter on my feet, I want to avoid disease, but something that is driving me more than all those is this: I have been trying to get pregnant for almost 2 years now. I feel the reason I am unable to conceive is weight related. They have not been able to find anything else wrong with me. I really want to have a baby. I don't want to waste any more time. I want to get healthy now and hopefully have a baby. So I will be logging my thoughts, trails, successes here. Writing really helps me to stay on the right track.